Few minutes ago, i just had this conversation with my ex-girlfriend and to sum up everything, the most appropriate words to describe the talk is ‘NO GOOD’.
I don’t want to talk more about my feelings because it doesn’t actually matter to her and explaining my side and my feelings will just make me more the ‘Affected person’ between the two of us. And like the usual thing, I’m the bad guy. I’m always the bad guy even though i didn’t do anything.(Well , no one really believes in the sht)
I just want to post my last letter that i will send together with her stuff.
(DISCLAIMER : This is my point of view.)
Hey!
First thing, don’t judge the life I live right now. You don’t know me. Wala ka pong alam. So sa sinabi mong di ako nagbago, you will never know J
You didn’t also know what I’ve gone through. So if I’m bitching on you, that’s because that’s all that I can give for you and nothing else. I’m pretty cold because clearly, iniiwasan kita. Hindi ba obvious? Know you now.
Yes, hindi pa ako fully recovered. And guess what, hindi ako maka-move forward knowing that you’re still bugging me. Ewan ko nga ba. hindi ko alam kung anong meron at panay text at tawag mo sken. That’s why I start to question kung anong nangyayaring mali.
Did you remember anything that I did para masira araw mo? Wala naman diba? Hindi ko na nga ginugulo ang masayang buhay mo.
Yung totoo, it always pisses me off whenever you call. Ang lakas talaga makainit ng ulo.
What do you want from me? Parang ganun yung dating.
Look, hindi ko alam kung natatandaan mo pa o wala ka tlgang maalala. I know you don’t love me and that’s fine with me. I wanna live alone and happy all by myself. pinipilit kong gawin yung tama.
Nakikita mo naman siguro at alam mo na ngang nahihirapan akong magcope up sa nangyare diba then you’re still asking kung bakit ganun ako sa’yo.
Saka ayokong umarte as if may kwenta ako sa buhay mo. Wala na nga akong kwenta kaya tayo naghiwalay diba? So bakit ako gagawa ng mga bagay na in the end alam kong ako yung masasaktan. Inululugar ko ang sarili ko dahil hindi magandang makita pa tayong magkasama.
Ayoko lang din na mag-muhkang aso mo na yung konting kibot e susunod sa lahat ng sasabihin mo. Paalala ko lang ulit, diba ayaw mo ng puro ako ang nasa buhay mo, that’s why we end up like this.
Pasensya na if hirap talaga ako mag adopt sa lahat ng nangyare. Ikaw kase andali sayong I let go ako. Andaling palitan ang tulad ko. Ang dali kong isangtabi J
Ako, totoo hindi pa ako okay pero magiging okay din ako sooner J
So to sum everything, Please. Pretty please.You know I respect everything you’ve said. All of your decisions and by that sana naman, makuha ko din what I deserve. I’m trying to live in peaceful life now. Wala naman sana akong hurt feelings. Umaabot lang sa point na nangyayari yung mga bagay na hindi naman dapat mangyari pa.
Hindi ako galit. You just thought but im not. Iba lang ang interpret mo. Inis lang siguro dahil hindi pa ako okay. Pagod din ako. Stressed. Maraming iniisip unlike before na ikaw lang ang laman ng isip ko.
Oks naman na yung set-up naten so sana ganito na lang po. Ingat nalang palagi 🙂
Waking Up With Amnesia 